TODAY!

Well, here we are. Jeff is finishing up his shower and mom is on her way over... we are headed to Dr. K's office this morning for the egg retrieval and sperm aspiration procedures... for those who were asking: YES, we are both OUT for these. We are so not awake. You can google the procedures to see what is entailed in our morning. We are so excited and I am so emotional. It took me hours to go to sleep last night and I was starving after all day with clear liquids. LOL! I actually had hunger pangs going to sleep last night and I couldn't help reflecting on how blessed I am in my life to always go to bed with a full tummy, so I said prayers for those in third world countries who go without food every single day! Then, I started to cry more thinking about my journey through grief and where my life has taken me... gain, I am blessed. We need prayers this morning: prayers to locate Jeff's dormant sperm via aspiration, that they get healthy eggs from me (and not old lady eggs), and that they are able to fertilize them together, creating our future baby... Oh,the card I got from Jeff last night - he is so awesome and I am so blessed... I will write more later. But, know he is totally excited for this and we are even more in love than ever... well, at least until the baby arrives - then we will be sleep deprived and ignore each other like most new parents! LOL! Love to all and thanks for the prayers... xoxox

evening time...

i am just an hour away from taking the hcg injection that has to be done 36 hours before the retrieval. i can hardly believe it is here. i am so blessed. tomorrow i have a clear liquid diet all day, so i will be staying with dad at his house - since i don't have a kitchen and the only fridge is in jake's house...filled with condiments and stuff. there will be tons of workers at my house tomorrow: running gas lines, destroying the hall bath, starting electrical and tearing out flooring. i so need to be away from this mess and relaxed with my Popsicles. mom made us dinner tonight and that was such a blessing - we are so lucky to have such awesome parents, to cook for us and take care of us while we are without a kitchen. i have been so emotional today, tearing up about anything and everything... what a mess. between that and my very much needed three hour nap, i am still worn out. i am so filled and bloated and crampy. this is the most miserable part and i know my sisters are right in that all of this will be worth it. i am so excited, jaime will be pregnant by the end of the week. with out babies... we pray that one of the three we are planning to transfer to her much-ready womb will be healthy and our future baby. the donor (back-up plan) sperm is in the doctor's office... Jeff is ready for his "procedure" and we are so excited to have a baby. i know we keep saying that over and over, but there was a very tender moment when we were leaving Dr. K's office this morning where Jeff took my hand and raised it to his lips, then kissed it ever so sweetly, looked me in the eyes and said he was so happy and so excited. i can hardly stand it, just the thought brings tears back to my eyes. i know that God has a plan for me and i am so very, very blessed (is there another word that describes this?). mom is so happy, you can totally tell she is ready to welcome home our bundle of joy and babysit on fridays for us... dad doesn't say much, but i asked him tonight what he thought... and he said he was excited for us a all of a sudden it feels real. dad would like to have twins in our family. i reminded them all that we have twins on both sides already and we don't really have to set a standard. i agree that it feels real this week - more real than it has been. we need all the prayers we can get... we are excited, elated, blessed, prayerful, jubilant... xoxo

Sunday before the retrieval...

Jeff and I went to Dr. K's office this morning (yes, they open on Sundays just for those patients that need a weekend visit)... We both had the last of our blood work and my last big ultrasound before the event. Jeff is scheduled for 6am on Tuesday, I am scheduled for 8am. The ultrasound today was amazing... I have over 17 follicles (eggs) on my right ovary that are approximately 1.5-2cm each - that is a lot! It is no wonder I am in total discomfort. The left side was harder to view and lower, so the current count is less for what they could see... but it is the more painful side. Only 2 more shots tonight (the HCG) that will burst those follicles into READY! I will have no shots tomorrow, but be on a clear liquid diet in preparation for the "surgery" on Tuesday morning. We will know on Wednesday when Jaime has the embryo transfer... either Fri-Sat-Sun. I cant wait. After calculations, the EDC (due date) is now 1/27/08. Can you believe this? It is too amazing.

I was so emotional this morning - really tearful. Actually, the past two days have been really, really emotional for me. Like, no matter what anyone says, I start to cry. We got to spend last night with Jaime and Alysha and Jake had prom and it was all so emotional and loving. The house is totally torn up for construction and remodeling. We have no kitchen, which means we are going to mom and dad's for dinner. Everything i moving along... more to come. XOXO