Just once a month

I can't believe my life has gotten so busy that I haven't been able to blog in over a month! Where does my time go? Maybe I need to reassess my priorities... maybe. Of course, if I really need to account for my time... it certainly goes without saying that my time gets dedicated to the following people and events for the last month:

• Jackson... oh, yes. My favorite little man is a time eater for sure. And not just the normal AMAZING accomplishments: like cutting his fourth tooth, cruising, taking one to two steps UNASSISTED, crawling FAST, bath times, meal times, walks.... then, he has the uncanny ability to sense when Jeff is out of town and stay up all night partying with mama... between that and his second ear infection, YIKES! Still a love bug and my favorite little dude.
• Jake ... oh Jake. He doesn't get as much time as he once did, but between breaking his foot while riding his bike... yes, only Jake could do this one... having to have surgery, multiple trips home for doctor appointments and the like and the many hours we have logged in talking, emailing, texting, and researching yet another major change... he has definitely part of the time eating in my life.
• Work... it was meant to be make my own schedule, work when I want and then one of the regular girls left for another opportunity, so I picked up a LOT of hours... so work is a big time spending location.
• Reading the bible... seriously, what was I thinking trying to read the BIBLE in 90 days, while working and taking care of my baby??? Well, it is really a fulfilling event. I have made it to Isaiah and am only a couple of weeks behind my class... and just so you know... reading the Bible in 90 days requires 12 pages a day... 12 pages a day!!!! In my SPARE time... LOL!
• THE GYM!!! How could I not mention my personal trainer and my exercise routine... UGH. Still not loving exercise, still not able to do it on my own... no fun or joy in this. But, I am seeing results and I am feeling better and looking better.... but, oh its such hard work!!

What's missing from this list??? JEFF!!! Jeff has traveled and will travel more than 90% of October.... home for something like 5 or 6 nights in the entire month. It crazy, he is all over the US: WA, CA, NJ, NY, TX, and will actually go to WY in November. With time differences, his schedule and mine... we have not exactly been connecting. Which is why I am currently in a Hilton suite in College Station, TX with my husband... and what does he do??? Watch TV... and what do I do? Blog! AAAHHHHH, free time without Jackson... and this is how I spend it? At least Jeff and I are in the same room and having conversations... laughing.

What's coming in November?

• Jeff's birthday
• Josh visiting from CA
• Karen coming from NV
• Jacque's 21st Birthday
• The Nutcracker Market
• Another Caribbean Cruise, this time with Mom and Dad and Jackson
• Thanksgiving
• and so much more!!!
  

September!!

OMG, has it really been a month since I blogged? Where does the time go? I can answer my own question: between working part time (which was mostly full time during September)... and attempting to read the Bible in 90 days (just 12 pages a day, and I am currently behind 12 days or 144 pages, sheesh!)... and a teething baby boy... and a husband out of town... and a son at college with a broken foot... there goes all my free time for blogging.

Jake decided not to pledge this semester after all... a personal decision. I think once he got a gander at the pledge fall schedule, he decided to focus on his grades. Jeff is silently relieved... I just want him to be happy and either way, I am supportive. We also bought Jake a bike this month to help him get around on campus a little better... and so, that didn't work out exactly like we planned... he fell and broke his 5th metatarsal in 2 places (classic Jones fracture for you ortho's)... and he will be having surgery this Friday (9/25) in Katy... We also went to the first LSU home game - in the rain - Jake in a wheelchair - but it was so exciting and fun... and LSU beat Vandy!! It was awesome! Jake is working hard at keeping his GPA up and above 3.0 and he has changed his major AGAIN... He is now a business major, but hasn't decided on or if he will minor in something (say, like transportation)... It's awesome and he is just the most wonderful son ever (except for his little brother who is also pretty wonderful)... but, Jake makes me so proud and I am an excited and supportive mama!

Another amazing thing for me was getting to watch Hannah perform in the LSU Tiger Marching Band. She was in every performance and it was awesome... We saw the private performance in the PMAC... and pregame and halftime, and even after the game, they played again! It was so fun. As a long time football fan and football mom, I have had many opportunities to watch... but, never really focused on the band. It was AMAZING, just like Hannah. I am so grateful Kristi (Hannah's mom) and I could make the trip to Baton Rouge for this event. It was a great time had by all. Have a mentioned lately how awesome Hannah is and how proud we are of her?!?!

Jeff has been traveling a lot this month and spent an entire 8 days in Elko, NV attending fire school! He was so excited about learning the curriculum, he actually said he wanted to join the local volunteer fire department... (um, I don't think so old man!!!)... Laughing! He did earn a basic firefighter certificate and he had a great time... he is loving his new job in emergency response. i am so happy he loves it. Its quite a change and I am really enjoying watching his enthusiasm. He will be traveling every week in October and is home a total of 6 days or something crazy all month long. I will welcome November, that is for sure.

Jackson cut another tooth - which means he has two bottom teeth now... so cute and so crooked! He is getting so bug and turned 8 months old yesterday. We celebrated that by having my birthday... some shopping in Rice Village, a new fall wardrobe for the dude, lunch with our fave peeps, and a nice dinner out (Jackson stayed home for this last part... with his Nanni Cheri). He is "chatting" and "cruising" and "climbing" and "teething" and lots of things that normal 8 month boys do.

And me, you ask?? Well, I am back to work - make my own schedule kind of thing - a couple times a week is the norm. I am back at being a Case Manager... which is just perfect for now. Keeps my mind going and my license active... two very important things. Oh, and that whole working out thing and my personal trainer... well, let me tell you after 4 1/2 weeks of this mess... I am still not enjoying working out and its really flipping hard!! Ray works me very hard... push push push... heavy weights, lots of cardio, and LUNGES... UGH! But, the results are there... I am back in my smallest size in the closet and 5 weeks ago there were these jeans that wouldn't go above my knees (SIGH) and I wore them last night for my birthday dinner out... So, its working. I am feeling better, too... physically. I just want to love working out, and I can't seem to get there... maybe after another four weeks! LOL! MAYBE! That's the scoop for now.

New Pledge

Jake participated in all the rounds at RUSH at LSU... he narrowed it down to four, then two and called last night with his choice for BID. He was offered BIDS from three fraternities on campus, but chose the PiKapps... saying they most closely fit him. It helped too that some guys from his high school are upperclassmen there. He said he really felt like he fit in and that is what is important with brotherhood. Each fraternity will be a little different on different campuses and he felt this was the best choice for him and his future. I had never heard of them... so I did a little research last night for my benefit and yours....

http://www.pikapp.org/
Pi Kappa Phi has been building better men on college campuses across the nation for over one hundred years. We are a first class fraternity who firmly believes in the tenets of Character, Leadership, Academics, Sportsmanship, and Service. These principles are not only valued, but instilled through the opportunities you will have as a member of Pi Kappa Phi and as a man of class. Pi Kappa Phi attains a high level of service by raising money for our national philanthropy “PUSH America.” Funds are raised through many fund-raisers including our annual Strongman Competition and Pull for Push skeet shooting tournament. Our past social events include our annual Rose Ball in Florida, semiformal in New Orleans, Pi Kapp Swamp Water, Pure Country, crawfish boils, and exchanges with different sororities. Pi Kapps are known for our brotherhood, athletics, campus involvement , community service, academics, being true southern gentlemen, and ultimately having the best college experience possible.
Founded: December 10, 1904 at the College of Charleston, Charleston, SC
LSU Founding: 1968
Symbols: Red Rose, Star, Bell, and
White Diamond
Colors: White, Gold, and Blue
Nickname: Pi Kapp
LSU Awards: Outstanding Fundraiser, Outstanding New Member

http://www.pikapp.org/
“Leaders by Choice”

MISSION STATEMENT OF PI KAPPA PHI
We will lead.
The expression of shared values and ideals as contained in the Ritual of Initiation,Supreme Law and fraternity policy;
The pursuit of brotherhood through scholarship, leadership, service and social experiences;
The achievement of personal excellence in each member and collective excellence in our fraternity;
A lifelong brotherhood of its members

where did August go?

So, time is flying by and things have been very, very busy. Sorry for the delay in updates. I will work backwards:
Jackson crawled around all morning chasing Maya... still doesn't move those back legs independently of each other.. wait until he figures out that it will increase his speed. I am already in trouble as he is a mover and a shaker. Laughing. But super studly cute!
I went back to work PRN this week. PRN means as needed, or basically I work when I want to and there is a need in the department. Which is quite often. I am back where I left 18 months ago, before Jeff's dad was ill, before Jackson came into my life... where I used to work full time as a case manager. Now I am back doing it. I did three days this week and it felt more like old home week than actual work. But, once I get that computer password assigned to me... it will be more work than play. It was good to see my old friends and the group that I chilled with. It felt so weird having adult conversations about something other than family business and drama. It felt good.
I missed Jackson, though and it makes it all worth it just to see the complete excitement rock his world. He is also saying bye-bye with his hand sporadically. Like the other day, Jeff got home first and he was so excited. Cheri handed him to Jeff and he gave Jeff a big love and then turned and waved bye-bye to Cheri (who he calls nanni). Kinda like, oh, ok my dad's here now - you can go. SWEET! He is a character.
He is pulling himself up on everything and starting to "cruise" 0 he has taken two steps consecutively that I have seen, while holding onto furniture or other things for balance. This kid is amazingly strong and no comparison to the other two... Jacque was close, but not Jake. We couldn't stand this early and wasn't walking even at a year old. Jacque was for sure... individuality.
Its great to have Jeff living in Houston again... enjoying having our family back together...
except that last weekend we hugged Jake goodbye in Baton Rouge, LA as we left him in the dorms at LSU. He is a Tiger now. And tonight is at the second night of Rush, looking for a fraternity to join. His daddy is Kappa Sigma and Jeff would LOVE for him to be a brother in that house, but he received an early bid on the first night from Pi Kappa Alpha... but told them he was keeping his options open and wanted to wait. He is having a great time and has been there a week now - classes start Monday. We are so proud of him, he is really doing a great thing with his life. Proud, I tell you - I am proud.
All my travel is done for August... and in September I have no new plans... maybe something for my birthday weekend, not sure. But, nothing concrete and that is a good thing. That's the scoop for now!

Happy August!

...and my big boy is sitting up all the time now. this is a picture with Auntie Cheri... She is amazing. I love my friend Cheri for many, many reasons... the most of which have to do with how she loves me and our whole family. She is always there for us: taking care of my children and my parents for the past 7 years... Thank you Cheri for being the BEST Nanny, Personal Assistant, Housekeeper, Nurse Assistant, Dog Watcher, Kennel Keeper, Seamstress, Chauffeur, and Therapist! You are the best and we are blessed to have you!!! As I get ready to return to work on a very flexible schedule, Cheri is going to be with Jackson... and I am glad not to call it child care... but we are blessed to be able to leave Jackson with someone who LOVES him and whom he loves...
Speaking of little Jackson, who is cutting his second tooth... on Saturday (8/1), he went from lying on him tummy - getting up on all fours - to sitting up all by himself. Of course, be the over zealous, excited mom that I am, I clapped and cheered, scaring him half to death and then put him back on his tummy to do it again - and he did! Again and again and now, we just can't stop him!!! WOW! He is out of control... Saturday night was also the first night that we moved Jackson to his big boy crib in his own room. For six long months, he has been sleeping in the co sleeper right by my side. I have loved every minute of it, but now that he has started the pseudo-crawl and scoot with rolling, it just wasn't safe any more... So, off he went. And he did awesome, he is so amazing, slept great. He did... me, not so much. I kept waking up looking at the baby monitor and checking the time. Needless to say, the 830am church service came awfully early. Too early for me. But he is growing and developing and amazing me every day.
Did I mention that I am glad July is over... I am so happy July is done. Welcome August!! Only two more weeks and my amazing Jake will be moving into the dorms at LSU... this summer has gone way too fast!!!

Jackson turns 6 months old in Puerto Rico

I added a few assorted photos from our amazing trip... which to most outsiders would look like total fun all the time! Of course, those who know us well, know that we take a trip every year on the anniversary of Jacque's death... we now refer to these "vacations" as our Angel Week or Angel Trip. What does show in the pictures is how happy we are as a family... we have overcome such huge obstacles of grief and disappointment to still be this happy... if not happier than ever. The above photo is of our complete traveling group this year: Jeff, Jen, Jake, Jackson, and Jake's amazing girlfriend, Hannah. We took this at the little 2-star "diner" that we had Paella at - oh my was that the best ever!!! So good, in fact, we had to go back a second time to do it again...

Jake and Hannah had an awesome vacation. They got to spend a lot of time together bonding and even during the trip exchanged "promise" rings... what a great memory to have together. They were also huge troopers in traveling with Jackson... who started cutting his second tooth near the end of the trip and stopped sleeping... we stayed at a 5 star resort with all the bells and whistles, but the full size beds left little to be desired... but when you travel with the family... you need as many beds you can get... Jackson's pack and play sleeper looked way more comfortable and I wont deny that it crossed my mind to crawl in there and leave Jeff the entire full size bed... which didn't leave a lot of room for me once Jeff was actually in it... or hanging over it, or whatever. Laughing... They also gave Jeff and I a bit of time to ourselves... we didn't ask for a lot from them, ever mindful of the torture my parents put me through in ALWAYS being responsible for my younger brother and never having a life of my own... we didn't do that to the kids. They gave us a morning to go souvenir shopping in old San Juan alone and one night after Jackson went ni-night, Jeff and I headed to the casino so he could lose all my winnings... (I am just saying... that is the reality of what happened as I kicked total but at BlackJack and Jeff $10 me to death!!!!)... ahhh, memories.

So, Jackson has been more places in his 6 months than most people travel in a life time. He is so blessed and such a blessing... a very good baby overall. He body surfed the Atlantic ocean and played in the sand while his Mama and Daddy parasailed... YES, I parasailed... and it wasn't until I was near the top of that 600 foot rope that I actually thought and shared with Jeff, we rode tandem: "what are we thinking, we have an infant to raise..." A little bit of anxiety, a couple of deep breaths and a very pleasant ride... I would do it again... just to see the migrating sea turtles below us and feel the ocean breeze. A definite top ten in my world. We also managed to hike the El Yungue rain forest/National park with Jackson to the La Mina water falls... what a beautiful experience. Really, just amazing. There was so much beauty in Puerto Rico. The people, the food, all a wonderful experience. I would highly recommend it to be added to the places to go in your lifetime.

Of course, the trip wasn't perfect. There were moments of bittersweet joy, there were times of sadness, and for my in the afternoon on Jacque's Angel Day... well, I had a meltdown. This time not stricken with overwhelming grief that kept me in bed, but more like someone turned on the switch and I was pissed off... couldn't define it or put my finger on it until later, but I was mad... at everyone and everything. It wasn't until much later, after some crying, some more anger, and some very badly deserved apologies from me to everyone in our group, that I realized what it was... DUH, how did I miss that one? It doesn't get easier with time and it doesn't feel right without her. We choose to "escape" by going out of town every year. A conscious decision to avoid phone calls and letters and well wishers. Its our grief and we want to celebrate Jacque's life our way, without the outside intrusions of well meaning family and friends. Sound harsh? I assure you its not... its for every one's benefit.

There was this father who lost his son that went to our Compassionate Friends support group meetings (back when we used to go)... and he told a story about losing his son and compared the loss to losing his dominant arm. I am sure the details are a bit sketchy, but it goes something like this:

When you lose your child, its like having your arm brutally ripped from your torso/body. Its hemorrhaging, the nerves are exposed, the muscles are torn and aching, and the skin is irreparable. In time, this exposed, graphic wound will heal... it will become a scar... a large scar. You may experience phantom pains, from the middle of no where for no reason that cannot be soothed... the bleeding will stop and it will scab over, but that pain will come at the most unexpected times. But the worse part about it, is you will ALWAYS know that your arm (your child) isn't there with you. No matter where you go and no matter what you do... its missing, a part of you will be noticeably absent. New friends wont know you any other way and the old ones will remember what you were like before your crippling disability. But your life will never be the same and you will have to learn all new ways to function without the most obvious thing in your life.

Jeff and I were told this just a month or so after Jacque died and it stuck with me... and it stays in my mind always because it is true. I always notice when she isn't there with me - and she should be. I know she is with us "in spirit," but it in not the same. I feel her visit from time to time and I know she flutters in and out of my life like all the winged creatures that remind me of her... but she isn't here and that hurts, even beyond the pain of the missing arm. We are blessed and I have a great life... two wonderful sons and a husband I love... future daughters-in-law to look forward to. We have awesome family support from the Endresen's and really I shouldn't ask for more... life is a journey and I am blessed in mine. But there are times... and I will just leave it at that.

PRIVACY

Ok - I will be updating this blog by weeks end with all the Puerto Rico pics and talk... in the meantime, it looks like the thing to do is to go private... so - here is the warning. I will be going private, too. If you haven't signed in or signed up to follow, please do... or send me an email with your email address and I will invite you to... hope all is well with you and yours! MUCH LOVE! xoxo

catch up!

We have been on the go solid for a month: CA, MO, TX, LA, KS, OK... Jackson has now been in 6 states before his 6 month birthday... seriously! he has met so much family... so many people in our extended family, too... we are having a blast. Just had to write a little update to catch up before we head out of the country to Puerto Rico for Jacque's Angel Day... its quickly approaching... next week will be the third anniversary. Time is going and going!

Jackson has hit some milestones: he now eats solid food 2-3 times a day... he is sitting up for a whole two minutes unassisted and he scoots on the floor. His hand eye coordination is improving every day and he is just a delight. He LOVES fireworks... no fear, giggles when upside down... again, no fear, and lunges at the dogs to kiss them and pull their hair... I am in for it I know!

Since the adoption was final, Jeff has been transferred back to Houston with a promotion and new position, complete with more money and international travel! We are feeling especially blessed for our patience... over 2 years we lived apart... that is a long time. My hard drive crashed and I was without a computer for a couple weeks!

Top questions everyone asks us:
1. How is Jim, Jeff's Dad? He is improving all the time. Still has lots and lots of blood clots and makes more all the time... but he is a walking miracle. He gains Independence every day. He still goes to physical therapy a couple times a week and has at least one doctor visit weekly... but he is fantastic. Every single day is a gift and a blessing and we totally appreciate it. Mom is even back to work some on a modified schedule...

2. Isn't Kellie moving to TX? The short answer is "i really don't know." The long answer should be left alone... but in the big scheme of things I think yes, eventually she will be coming this way... at least she says she wants to.

3. What's Jeff's new position? Again, I have no idea what his new title is, but it is in the health and safety department and he is responsible for education and training on all points of fuel transport and delivery: refinery, truck, train, barge, oil rig, etc. And there is an emergency response component. He is responsible for even more that I don't even know yet... lots of travel and he is excited for the international travel... He is just excited period. Very happy to have a new position with a new challenge... and of course, IN HOUSTON!!!! about 17 miles from home... Oh , the joys and sweet rewards of patience!

4. How's Jake? Jake is AMAZING! He was accepted into LSU for the fall semester and by some miracle from God, really it was a miracle, Jake was awarded the LAST dorm room on campus! We are feeling blessed for this. We have attended orientation and he is registered for classes. School starts the last week of August. He is so pumped and we are so happy for him. His major remains Industrial Engineering, but I know he continues to explore his options and we support that. He is in Trig this summer at the local community college and has been working almost full time hours at Lifetime Fitness, the posh gym/spa in Cinco Ranch. He and Hannah are still a couple... very much in love and its sweet. She is going to LSU this fall also... she will be in the Tiger marching band... and their dorm buildings are right next door. They are going to have an amazing time! Jake plans to pledge Kappa Sigma, just like his dad!

...that's all I have for now! Please feel free to submit more questions... until next time!

Adoption Final!! WHOOP!

On June 2, 2009 - the great state of Texas finalized our petition to adopt our own son...
... finally after classes and references and home studies and interviews ... we are considered good enough to raise our own biological child! WHOOP!

and in the process of celebrations i dropped my phone in the Panahi potty... thus getting to go get a new phone... i chose this: (basically so I could IM and facebook in addition to email from my phone as a mobile mom)

reflections on ...

What exactly is appropriate to blog? Are there topics that are off limits? Things that you aren't allowed to talk about? People that you aren't supposed to mention when you are blogging? I have had some interesting familial developments and I can't help but wonder if there are some things you just aren't supposed to say... maybe because it will cause some discomfort among readers? Maybe because when you put it out there, you can't take it back? I am not sure. Are you allowed to disclose problems in your family? Is it permissible to talk about abuses of any kind? Is it OK to tell your side of any story, knowing there is another side that may not agree with your side? Can I regurgitate frustrations and disappointments without sounding like a total maniac? Is there a way to blog all those things without causing massive amount of waves that will forever rock the boat of life? I mean what do you do exactly, when you feel you have something more to say on a subject that may be negative, when you are used to blogging only the positive? Really, feedback would be totally appreciated!

Now that I have regurgitated that mess... moving onward and upward! There will be a happier blog to follow with awesome photos of my sons... Where does the time go?

On a lighter note, we are still in OK and those feet are (obviously) Jackson's with his new John Deere Camo (soft-soled) boots, courtesy of his Daddy, purchased at Atwoods... can I just say... How hick can you get in one week??? They are super cute, though and he will be wearing them all summer with his (very non-hick) summer short outfits. I love something that brings a great smile to my day and these boots did it!!

Speaking of smiling... I went with Ria antique shopping in Kansas (yes, the state) yesterday... tons of fun for a girls morning out... we are less than 20 miles to the Kansas border and we were able to add another state to the lengthening lists of places traveled for Jackson... tomorrow we fly out of Tulsa back to Houston... YAY!

I am going home to Texas tomorrow and really, really looking forward to it... I miss my bed. But, spending time with Steve & Ria has been tons of fun. They are such a loving family and we really appreciate them letting us crash and take over their guest room ... ad really the hole house with all the baby stuff! It has been so amazing to have Jeff & Jackson spend oodles of time together... we all needed this so bad!

And just one more thing to add: Jeff has a phone interview for a position in Houston this morning... we would appreciate all the prayers we can get! Two years of living apart is quite enough!! Very serious hopes and prayers for our family to be back together full time... this commuter thing to and from Houston and Bartlesville is so hard: emotionally and financially!!!

He rolled over - the other way!!!

We were spending some time outside, laying on the blanket in the cool afternoon breeze of OK spring, when Jackson decided to roll over from back to front for the very first time! The date? May 22, 2009! He is amazing... more of the OK trip to be chronicled later!

Jackson is 4 Months!!

Where does the time go? I swear he just got here... he has been busy and to reflect on the last month: he rolled over, has purposeful movements, grabs, coos and babbles, rolls from front to back, blows bubbles, and now is eating some solid foods... he is just amazing! Summer is here! We are currently in OK, spending time with friends, since Jeff works here Monday through Friday... and life is great... can't wait for June - it is full of visitors and travel for us. Jackson is such a great traveler... endured the 12 hour drive up here with ease and we plan to fly home Monday (Memorial Day)... this is such a fun time!

random thoughts on my men...

It has been forever since I felt like I had a "normal" life. But, that is how it goes in my world and I am not complaining. To say that my life is busy is an understatement, but don't we just continue to make the time and prioritize and reevaluate those things that come up that we may value more... I am reflecting on Dad and his recent illness... the long struggle since mid-March to get him better. Of course, he is improving and each small step is something I cherish... How Jeff and I have been living in two different states for over two years now and he continues to commute home to see me and Jackson every weekend, regardless of time and expense, accommodations are made.... How Jake has completed his freshman year of college (this semester earning 4 B's and 1 A in 16 units... Go Jake! I know, brag, brag, brag!!!)... and how my littlest man, Jackson changes every single day, discovering the world around him and I stand by in awe of the majesty of it all. Family is something I value above all else... something instilled in my soul and it makes up the fabric of my being... We all have struggles and our family is not exempt from that... although we do try to make the very best of it all... I am so glad it is "Friday night," even though the clock is way after midnight here and I am still awake... knowing Jeff will be home from OK any minute (10 hour drive)... Jake is home from college for the summer (except his job at the gym and taking a math class at the local community college to get ahead) and getting to spend so much time with his remarkable GF, Hannah... and lil Jackson (still in the co sleeper in my room), snoozing and breathing next to me (music to my ears) and just grateful for what I do have and the amazing men in my life: Jeff, Jake, Jackson, and Dad! You all amaze me! I am blessed....

seriously tired....

Some days are easier than others... today was not necessarily an easy day... I had a doctor appointment and Jake watched Jackson for me... I left the two of them alone, together... for the first time. It freaked me out a little, but Jake loves him and he was well care for... even after a couple diaper changes and a bottle or two... remarkably the doctor visit was complete and the grocery shopping got done... And because of the crazy heart monitor that is now strapped to me for twenty four hours, Jack Jack Attack was back in the house... you can't tell by the photo above... which was early evening, playing with Auntie Cheri and singing the hippopotamus song... he giggled and laughed and blew incredible spit bubbles. Boy, this lil' dude love music! But, my evening was as close to Hell as you can get... and made worse by the feeling of exhaustion overcoming me... I really wish Jeff could move back to Houston (ASAP)... this two year long distance thing sucks!

Bet ya can't guess what's going on in this picture... LOL! What I was trying to do was get a good shot of his eyes... they are so dark blue, but filled with lots of dimension like a deep pool of water... below is said picture finally obtained... I think it shows his eyes a little better... but since he was such a stinker to me tonight... with a fit of 30 minute nonstop screaming, I just had to embarrass his future by adding the photo above! That is love for you!!!! He is sound asleep, snoring next to me and it is 1115pm! I am seriously tired... wishing and praying for a nap sometime and anytime!!! Can I have Mother's Day all over again... with breakfast in bed and a mid-day nap??? I didn't get that the first go-round and I really, really want it!

Jackson's CA Trip May 2009

May 2, 2009: Captain's log book Saturday May 2... Jackson and I flew from Houston to Ontario, CA on board a Continental 737... we were blessed to fly first class (gotta love those frequent flyer miles)... He was so good on the plane... only fussy for just a few minutes and walking first class corrected that! The flight attendant was so sweet and she offered to hold him while I went potty and had a glass of water... as any mom who has ever flown with a small child knows: this is an incredible blessing! Auntie Jessica picked us up and we went straight to Miguel's Jr in Norco! YUM! That is always the first stop... as long as we arrive during an hour that they are open...

Good evening just chillin' at the Endresen home in Elsinore...

Sunday May 3rd started at 530 am for me, Jackson was UP... on Texas time... and he barely napped more than 15 minutes at a time the whole day... needless to say, it was a long day. But, we did have Del Taco... and hung out with Josh & Jess. Noni came over in the afternoon to visit a bit... Sorry she got all the pics with her camera, so unless she sends them to me, I have nothing to share from that visit.

Monday May 4th was a great day! But, the great treat, besides getting to shower for me, was that my awesome sister (in law) Kellie brought over Del Taco!!So I got to get my green burrito with fries... the junk food in CA is really good... laughing!

Tuesday May 5th Desarie came out from the farthest point in Riverside possible to Elsinore to take me and Jackson out to lunch and shopping... we also visited Auntie Kellie's work, ate some burgers... Desarie's son Ethan is just 3 weeks younger than Jackson and so he buddied-up for some good times. What a sweetheart to come all the way out to get me on the town. Then, we went to Miquel's Jr (again) for dinner... with Josh, Jess, Kellie and Tanner and Trenten, and the Shadwick's: Fara, Steve, Drew, and Stevy. What a great way to end the evening.

Wednesday May 6th was a quieter day... I had originally planned to go to Scott & Mina's... but Jeff invited Kellie, Jackson, and I to Parker's Lighthouse in Long Beach to see the Evans'. So, it turned our evening into a really, really busy one.... (after another Del Taco lunch from Kellie). So, we picked up a rental car that Jeff reserved for us, Kellie was so amazing taking the entire evening from her family to drive me to Long Beach from Elsinore... but, we got the rental car, stopped by her house to start the boys' homework and dinner, we were on the road. And the "gods" were with us, no stopping in traffic.... although there are LOTS and LOTS of cars on the road. What a great evening with my sister.... we were able to laugh and spend time together... we chatted all the way there and laughed all the way home about the dinner conversations. It was a complete hoot and we both are blessed to have so much time together. Auntie Judy (Jeff's aunt on his mother's side) was soooo excited to see Jackson. The photos reflect that excitement ad she even said he is the most beautiful baby ever!!! We agree, but her granddaughter isn't due until September, she may change her mind then.... I feel certain she will! Jackson got to meet his great-grandparents Mary & Cleo Evans and that was worth the business and commute...

***as a side note*** it is the one year anniversary of getting "pregnant" with Jackson... one year ago (5/6/08) Jeff & I were at the fertility doctor getting our "needles" and creating this little guy in a petrie dish.... amazing that year has been so full of blessings!

Thursday, May 7th was mine and Jeff's 21st wedding anniversary. Jackson and I slept in a bit and got ourselves ready.... Jeff came home around 11am, took us to Miquel's Jr for lunch (I know, Mexican food again!) and then we were off to LA to see some friends and family... we visited the Evans' office and it was great to see Dawn & Sandy & Candi... we laughed and caught up on old times and older friends... and the only thing bad was how blazing hot it was both outside and at the office, where the air conditioning went out! UGH! We returned to Elsinore where Josh & Jess babysat our favorite little dude and Jeff & I headed to an awesome and amazing dinner at Mario's Place in Riverside with George & Tina... the food was amazing,the atmosphere eclectic, the service good, but the friends and laughter is the best!!! The traffic was horrific almost all day... and I was so glad I decided not to drive in LA. Being in the backseat with Jackson was the best place for me! Jeff took a break from his work schedule and slept over with Jackson and I at Josh & Jess'... but he was back to work at 430 in the morning!! YUCK!

***if you get to Riverside, CA, I would recommend Mario's to you:

http://mariosplace.com/mariosplace_menu.html it was super yummy and we are forever grateful to our friends for treating us on our special day!!!***

Friday, May 8th Jackson and I relaxed in the morning... Jeff got "home" around 2pm... and then Noni & Grandpa came to visit Jackson. I got a few photos this time with Grandpa, but none with Noni... I always using her camera and forgetting to grab mine... so unless she sends me pics... I am out of luck for the albums I am making. UGH! Its like forgetting you have a camera! I hate that... after that visit, we went to Willy & Marissa's house in Wildomar... just a few minutes away and they treated us to some yummy take out and a walk down memory lane. The thing that will always stick in my mind is how much Jackson LOVED Marissa's Dad... Jackson's abuelo now forever! It was so cute!!

Saturday, May 9th started out very early... which was fine with Jackson still on TX Time... we were at breakfast at Mimi's Cafe (our closest one at home is Dallas, about 3 hours away)... My cousin Janelle drove out to meet us and take time from her schedule to play with our new guy... from there we were off to the Arnold's, where Gavin helped feed Jackson, Bailey wasn't too sure of Jackson and even thought he was smelly (which he was)... Mina took some amazing photos of Jackson and they are posted on our facebook site! She is so talented and their new home is gorgeous! Then, we were off to the Shadwick's to meet Fara & Steve's granddaughter, Skylar, just two weeks old.... and super sweet. We stayed for some scrumptious meatball sandwiches, then had to get "home" for company... Back at the Elsinore Endresen's Auntie Di came out from Long Beach to see us. This wonderful and awesome lady worked all day and still drove like 60 miles to see us and meet Jackson. H didn't disappoint her... there were lots of cuddles. Auntie Kellie and the boys came back over and she got tons of auntie kisses, too... then a few girlfriends from the high school days: Carol, Dianna, and Chere, joined us for some yummy grilled chicken and a night of gossip, chatting and chaos! It was tons of fun and thanks to Josh & Jess for opening their house to us and our friends for a great evening... we are so blessed!!!

Mother's Day: breakfast burritos at SS Burger Basket (since we only have breakfast tacos in Texas)... then a great flight home. Jackson is such a good traveler... looks like we may be flying back out to Cali in June.... for just a weekend or so... but, Jackson was really SO WELL BEHAVED, I am not worried to travel with him by plane.

Overall, it was a great and relaxing week... I needed the break from home, got some rest, visited tons of our friends and family and feel so VERY, VERY GRATEFUL for each person who made the effort to come see us... with such understanding and love in their hearts. They rearranged their lives for a day, an evening, a few hours, to come see us and meet our new son... we feel blessed and really happy that they did!!!

Leave for Cali Today!!

So, my little man wakes up with so much joy in his heart, it spills over to his attitude and he is nothing but laughter and smiles... we were just getting dressed for the day, when he started really, really laughing and smiling. I quickly grabbed the camera for a few candid shots and I swear this would be the perfect laughter shot if he didn't have all the goop in his left eye (still suffering the clogged tar duct thing and having lots of eye buggers in the morning) and if he didn't have the faintest bugger out of his left nostril and the self-inflicted scratch on his nose... but, who is perfect, right? (I did finally get his finger and toe nails trimmed last night after daddy rocking him ni-night). He is still to cute and full of sunshine! He is teething up a storm and we have drool and snot all the time now! He is such a boy! Laughing. As you can tell by the picture, he is one very happy little guy. His favorite-est things this month are: playing in the exer-sauce, making music happen on any toy that will make music, being outside - oh, how he LOVE to be outside (rain or shine), and watching/listening to musical shows on TV - like the Owl singing on Winnie-the-Pooh or the Wiggles... he gets so excited when music happens!

My big guy is home for the weekend... taking his girlfriend, Hannah to her prom tonight. I can't wait to see the pictures... her dress is very gorgeous and red... Jake is wearing black on black tux/shirt, with red/black paisley vest. The corsage is so beautiful... red roses and orchids... I really am happy for them. Jake gets out of school this week and gets to move back home for summer. He already got his old job back at Lifetime Fitness, working in member services, front desk. He will be working and taking Trig at the local community college this summer. I don't envy his schedule. The good thing is, he and Hannah will have the summer together... looking forward to vacation!

Jeff left for Sacramento this morning to visit our dear friend, John Wadden, before working in Northern and Southern CA all week. On Thursday we will celebrate 21 years of wedded-bliss... and at least we will be together for a date on Thursday night. Auntie Kellie has volunteered to babysit and he loves his Auntie Kellie! I am also excited for Jessica to meet Jackson... I just know she is going to LOVE him!!! He is so outgoing and fun to be around... I will try to blog while on vacation and see if I can update along the way... its going to be a very fun and (hopefully) relaxing week for the both of us. We need a stress reducer for sure!

...and just to update you, on Thursday last week we brought Dad home from the hospital with a hospital bed and wheelchair and we will be rehabilitating him at home. Mom is doing a great job so far, being Nurse Ratchet... and Dad has been likened to Archie Bunker already and I will say, as hard as the work is and as stressful... it is also humorous and rewarding. Dad is doing better already: appetite back, standing, transferring on his own... I bet he even starts walking a bit before I get home from Cali! I can't wait to see how he progresses with his home physical therapy and the home health nurse checking in on his twice while I am gone. Thanks to an amazing team of caregivers for allowing me to step away: Cheri, Shelley, Jaime, Cynthia, and of course, AMAZING Mom!

Gotta finish packing for Jackson's first airplane ride... all the way to California! He is gong First Class... in case you were wondering!

and he found his toes today!!!

...and for the first time ever, Jackson grabbed his right foot with his right hand and held onto his big toe for a bit... also (as a side note)... he may look like Jake's mini-me, but he has Jacque's smile and laugh (giggle) and what a blessing for the sore hearts in our family to see a bit of the Angel we miss so much, shining through her youngest brother... as he is scooting and lifting his head while on his tummy... more candid shots coming later. He is just a miracle and a blessing.

jackson updates

I was thinking - early this morning - like 4am, when Jackson woke me from a sound and peaceful sleep with the pangs of hunger... that I totally forgot to update the blog with info on the newest events of my lil'guy! That is ridiculous... Normally, he lets me sleep until at least 630am and sometimes as late as 8am. This morning I will have a lot to do to get Dad ready for discharge from the hospital... but I really would've enjoyed some more solid sleep without the stress dreams of late. Like two nights ago when I dreamed I was a jet fighter pilot for the USA, ranked #15 in the nation (really? seriously? is that the weirdest thing or what?)... that is a dream for a teenage boy, not a 20-something mom of 3! Anyway, I was called to fight for our country as we were being attacked by an unnamed middle eastern country... and to make a long dream short... What the heck? I think it had something to do with Jeff buying this militant looking rifle of some sort for our friend George in CA... it looked a lot like those weapons seen in the arms of young children in war torn third world countries.... that, flying to CA, taking care of Dad... the pressure is obviously getting to me! LOL! Anyway, back to my favorite little dude. He is totally giggling out loud now... this started on April 21. He woke up with the biggest out loud giggle on his Auntie Kellie's birthday... since then, we have found tons of tickle spots to recreate the laughter. He is so outgoing ad fun... full of smiles and cuddles. Reminds me a lot of Jacque's personality... which, I won't lie, is a total blessing! He is also scooting a lot when I lay him onto his blanket for tummy time. Jackson is also drooling tons and mastering the spit bubble... teething just around the corner. He is starving all the time (I know he gets this from his Dad who can't go more than two hours without eating SOMETHING)... and his reflux is bad enough that now we are weighting down his formula bottles with a little rice cereal... it helps and educed projectile occurrences, but he is still a spitty kid. He has found his hands and definitely loves to have them in his mouth! Which is fine with me... I keep them clean... which will be less likely to happen as he gets older. He is playing in his exer-saucer and loves to punch the buttons to make the animal sounds and music as the reward. It is awesome to see him reach and grab, pull and push... all with purpose. Of course, if he gets ahold of it, he wants it straight away into his mouth! He is also a blanket kid.... preferring soft flannels and micro-fibers to anything else... he holds a piece, snuggles his burp rags in his sleep, and almost always needs one tightly grasped in his hands when going ni-night... I love that. Both my older kids were blanket lovers as well... and they call them their bubbies! Looks like Jackson will be a bubbie lover, too. He wakes up singing and talking... and he is such a good baby. Cranky Jack Jack Attach time has subsided and while he is a little more cranky in the evening, he is not screaming or acting colicky in any way... just a little more demanding and temperamental in the evening... but totally manageable... bye bye to Jack Jack Attack, which is fading into a distant memory... Hallelujah! So, that is the scoop... maybe I can get some more sleep before my day really gets going!

...its been forever!

I know it has been forever since I blogged... our family has been very busy taking care of Jeff's Dad... he has been in and our of 3 different hospitals and 2 rehab centers 6 different times over the last month and is now scheduled to go home first thing in the morning and mom is going to help him recover at home... much better than so many of the convalescent places he has been....

In the meantime, we have had Easter and Jake will be out of college next week - finishing up his freshman year. As soon as those transcripts get sent to LSU, he will have his answer for fall. Jackson is growing like a weed and this Saturday we are scheduled to take his first airplane vacation to California... I couldn't be more ready for a little break and some really good Mexican food! Miguel's Jr here I come! That should help my triglyceride count, NOT! Jackson also had his baptism on Easter Sunday... a few photos for you to enjoy and I promise to try to get back to blogging as often and as soon as possible.... I miss it so very much. Oh, Jeff is STILL working in OK and commuting home to TX on the weekends... that hasn't changed, but he has been desperate enough to get out of Oklahoma to apply for jobs in Alaska (North Slope) and Kazakhstan (Russia area on Caspian Sea).... can I just say COLD and HECK NO!!! That is total desperation though... We are all healthy and well here!

...long time coming...

Seriously, I don't even know where to begin with an update... after almost a month of events. Dad being sick and currently in the ICU takes a lot of my energy and devotion. And even though we are all emotionally and physically exhausted, I just keep plugging away. Jackson is growing so fast... bigger every day! He turned 12 weeks old this week and where does the time go? During the last few weeks we had a few more firsts to document: he focuses and listens intently to people now... he can also track someone across the room, or in the case of the dogs, watch them go round and round and round the table. That one is a riot with his very jerky head movements, but not letting those dogs out of his site. He has his first Polish Easter and he was baptized on Easter Sunday (photo above taken just before the service). He was so good and we did manage to get the baptism on video... i am just still learning how to upload that kind of thing. He met his Auntie Kellie (photo at very top) and cousins Tanner and Trenten for the first time and they all love him and he loves them, too. And now that I have made a mini-update, I feel a decrease in the pressure to get a blog done and I can go back to normal blogging. We continue to ask for prayers for Jeff's dad as he is in stable but very serious life-threatening condition.

morning naps

This is the second morning in a row of morning nap in the SWING! Yes, the swing! After 10 weeks of life, my son will finally tolerate the swing for about 5-10 minutes after his morning bottle, which is just long enough for him to fall asleep in it! YAY! Ok, seriously... this is a blessing. Not only do I get to have breakfast now, but I can BLOG, read email, clean the kitchen, and all kinds of great routine-like morning activities that I have been missing. This is simply amazing and demonstrative of perseverance... I didn't give up and FINALLY I have succeeded and he (somewhat) tolerates and may even be secretly enjoying his swing! SShhhh, don't tell him. The photo above shows play time on the activity center on the floor... he loves being on his tummy, but it is so hard to get cute photos of him laying that way. He really is "talking" and babbling a lot lately and the intense amounts of drool have started... which leads me to believe w may be getting closer to teething... that is hard to believe because my other two kids were so late on teeth, but everyone is different. I am really looking forward to next week: Jeff's sister, Kellie, and her two boys will be here for the whole week, Leah & Alex are going to visit us from Utah (YAY), and Easter is around the corner... I get to start baking the homemade wheat bread (recipe courtesy of Auntie Di in Cali)... and the Galumpkies (stuffed cabbage rolls) in tomato sauce, too because we can freeze and thaw later.... I love me some Polish Easter and it is coming! Spring is here... and every change of the seasons makes me miss Jacque... but feeling more peace as we approach the three year mark (which we will be remembering in Yosemite in July this year for her Angel Day)! So much to do before then....

Busy Week

We have spent the last week between the hospital and the rehab center because Jeff's Dad had taken a fall two weeks ago Monday. To describe the level of exhaustion, there just aren't enough words that describe that kind of tired. I have to tell you, there was a lot to worry about for a while and I know it was taking its toll on my physically and emotionally. I am grateful Jeff's brother Josh came out to help... I don't know what I would've done without him! Seriously, taking care of my new baby as a single mom while Jeff is in OK working and then having Dad be so sick and disabled... I was beside myself. It isn't my story to tell, but I will share that my worries were compounded each day with hallucinations, collapsing lungs from immobility, intense unbelievable pain, weakness to the point of being unable to stand without assistance, and bowel issues... My prayers were "can't something go right?" Eventually dad did improve enough to go to the rehab hospital and they are treating him well there... he is actually improving and working with speech, physical and occupational therapy every day... he will get t come home in no time and we will be so happy for that! In between all of that, Jeff's back "went out" and he spent a week going to the chiropractor and taking darvocet just to get out of bed... then the next weekend, Jake's back "went out" from too much strain on his mission trip to Jamaica... seriously, what is with the competition between the Endresen men! Jackson and I haven't made it to our beds before 11pm each night and I am totally afraid he has completely changed his schedule: for instance it is 840 am and the little guys is still sleeping... its like having a teenager already!

On a lighter note, I am decorated for Easter now. YAHOO! It took me forever to get that stuff up, mainly because I haven't been home. Glad it is now... we even put some time on the schedule to start the cooking next weekend... YAY! I am so excited for that. Even though I am not Polish by heritage, it is one of my favorite traditions that I married into. Just to clarify, no Jeff isn't Polish either, but he has awesome extended family that is and we just LOVE being together as a family, celebrating the day: egg hunts, skits, fattening food with tons of sour cream, homemade bread, stories and laughter and kids and it is just so fun to celebrate and honor our risen Lord with a family party! We have grown to love sharing in this tradition and it will be our third year hosting... we do it in Jacque's memory. She loved a god Polish Easter and we are blessed to continue in the tradition that Jacque and Uncle Du LOVED!

I am ready for some happier times... starting TODAY!!! The photo above is a bath during jack jack attack time and he is staring me down! It was hysterical. He did not want to get out... this boy loves being naked and in water! Can't wait for summer!

Jackson 2 month Check-Up

On Friday, March 20 we visited the pediatrician for our immunizations and two month well check... of course that meant one oral dose and three injections in those fat little legs... super sad. Needless to say, the photo was taken after Jackson was weighed and measured: weighing in at a whoppin' 12.6 pounds and a whole 22 1/2 inches long.... Jake was that long AT BIRTH! Anyway, he was so much fun to take to the doctor... such a good boy! It was Jeff's first experience at the pediatrician for immunizations... he was doing to "peepee" dance in the corner while Jackson screamed at the shots... Jeff was traumatized and stressed out to the max!!! I just held his hand, the pro that I am on my third kid. It was sad, sure - but totally necessary. I am pro-immunizations and support the eradication of avoidable diseases. We are just totally enjoying our little dude. Who could resist kissing those cheeks!!!

Happy St. Patrick's Day 2009

Erin Go Bragh! Ireland Forever! This is a day, whether or not you really have

Irish heritage, you feel connected to the small British Isle by the color green and corned beef. This year we were out of all the traditions. Jake is out of the country, serving on a Christian mission in Jamaica... they are repairing a school, lots of manual work as well as providing them a resource library and computer lab. The kids of Jamaica will love them for this, for sure. An added benefit for Jake is that his girlfriend Hannah and friend Shelby also are in tow for an awesome working and learning experience. Jeff was supposed to be in OK, but has injured his back in some way, its really tough getting old. The doctor he saw Monday took xrays and stated that his back is probably related to his old knee injury from basketball, his pelvis is tilted and off by about 10 mm from the right to the left. He is home recuperating and taking lots of medications. He is seeing the chiropractor daily for the muscle spasms and it is helping. Mom & Dad were going to go to FL to visit their best friends, but Dad fell and not only does he have a couple of compression fractures, but he is in some severe pain... it ruined his trip out of town and now they are home... Mom is doing a great job of taking care of him for sure. So, I was planning on being ALONE for one of my favorite holidays... and really my favorite GREEN holiday... so no Irish food for the first time in our entire marriage. And everyone ended up here and I wasn't alone... so no Irish soda bread, no corned beef & cabbage slow cooked in nut brown ale, no new potatoes loaded with butter and sour cream... no wake cake... I have failed my Irish American self... by eating chicken and wearing blue today! OH Well!

Jackson turns 8 weeks old tomorrow... can't wait for his doctor appointment Friday to see all the measurements and how much he has grown. He is getting big... and gosh, he is a lot of fun!

Dear Jaime

Dear Jaime,
I know I am about to say that there are no words that really describe the true depth and emotion of my feelings about this journey we have taken together, that the words I will give you only touch the surface of my love and gratitude. You are one of the most giving and generous people I have ever had the privilege of knowing and loving. I am in awe and constantly amazed when I look at my miracle son, how you could make such a huge sacrifice of your body, your time, your heart, your life, for Jeff & I to be blessed with such a darling little baby.

I honestly feel that the ability to do the surrogacy is a gift from God, a discovered talent. It takes a very special woman to be able to go the journey and provide the greatest gift: life. You, my darling sister, have been given that gift. Watching your pregnancy and sharing in the special events and moments made the last year so magical and pleasurable. What a real blessing you are in our lives.

Who would’ve guessed that six year old darling little girl I met when I was marrying your brother, with the longest hair ever, would grow up to be one of my best friends, not only my sister in marriage, but in love. My memories of you are long and go deep: cornrows in your hair, first boyfriends, first girl friends, changes and growing up… it is a journey I will always be grateful to God for. I recall the day you came to me with this fabulous idea… I remember the suffering through the shots and medication, especially the suppositories, YUK! The things you had to experience to get pregnant and stay that way! Oh MY! What a trooper you are.
Being in the delivery room and watching your struggle with labor and the amazing and miraculous birth of our son is something that will stay burned in my memory forever. Your ability to have a child is something that I am in awe of. You are truly amazing! You did a fabulous job and Jackson is just perfect. This reflection on my gratitude is just the tip of the surface! I love to watch you with him, snuggling and loving on your nephew that, without you, would not be a reality. That is so powerful and I am filled with such pride and love when I watch you kiss my son!

I know you have received other thank you’s, from me as well as other family and friends… but I promise you no one has more thankfulness, gratitude, and love for you and what you have given our family: another chance at love. Babies and children, in general, fill the world with such profound joys. For us, knowing the depths of sadness and Hell with the loss of a child, we appreciate the sweetness and fragility of this human life entrusted to us. I know that this journey included Jacque in so many ways and it still does. For you and I will always share that magical bond of ushering in Jackson’s sweet spirit in his sister’s memory.

Tears sting my eyes as I write this: Thank you… thank you for Jackson, for your love, for your amazing spirit, thank you for your passion, thank you for your uniqueness… I just love you Jaime (even before all this). You are my hero… I don’t use that word lightly, really you are my HERO! I love you (MORE) and thank you (again) from my whole heart.
Xoxo Jen (Jeff, Jake & Jackson, too)

7 weeks today

We have swing success for the first time this morning! Jackson woke up at 7am, played in bed with me until 8am, then we did some floor time for about 20 minutes... and then I thought - let's try that archenemy the SWING again... and YES! He was awake and "enjoying" it for about 15 minutes before he dozed off and he is still in it! You wonder how I know he is enjoying it... no scowl on his face... just that peaceful look! YAY! He is porking up a bit, gaining weight like crazy. He is such a good baby... last night we only had 5 minutes of Jack Jack Attack time.... Jeff says that doesn't even qualify! I agree! We did spend some time in the Bjorn carrier while I vacuumed and did dishes and picked up the house... he really seemed to enjoy that. I finally get to blog and well, he is waking up now. But, still I am so very excited for the small amount of time we got in the swing this morning! YAY!

Jackson is 6 weeks Today

Photos of Jeff playing with Jackson after work... he loves the kissing game and opening his mouth for the echo of kisses into his head! We had a great time playing last night an went over to the Richardson's home here in Bartlesville (Steve used to work for Jeff in San Diego, when Jeff and I lived in CA)... Steve and Jeannie are great friends and they had us over for a totally yummy dinner - homemade pasta and homemade bread... YUM! The best part was having extra hands during dinner and what Jeff has now dubbed Jack Jack Attack time.... and if you haven't seen the Incredibles you will be missing the hysteria in the nickname... Yes, I totally look like Kari the babysitter at the end of the tow hour colic session.... and in the ending of the Incredibles, when Jack Jack is fighting the bad guy and rapidly changes from lead to fire to devil to oh my! That is so indicative of how colic i working for our little man. Jeff says last night was the best and easiest so far... I think many hands make light work and Steve & Jeannie are very experienced grandparents and parents... so fussy time was really nothing for them, so they said! It looked easy enough while Jeannie paced the room with Jackson and I ate a very warm meal for the first time in I can't remember.... LOL! Almost all parents of newborns and colicky babies can relate, I am sure!

Jackson's First Road Trip!

While we likely could have picked a more exciting destination than Bartlesville, OK - it is where the heart is that settles the destination. With Jeff still living in OK Monday through Friday, and missing his son extremely (well, before we got here, more on that later)... Anyway, after our interview on Monday 2/23, we packed up (a four hour adventure in memories, as both of us had totally forgotten how much time and stuff it takes to travel with an infant)... I hate to mention how spoiled I had been wit packing in less than an hour and hitting the road. So, four hours later... we departed the house sometime after 1 pm for our 10hour drive (without stops, as previously traveled)... We were both tired already... so here we were in Jeff's truck: Jackson and I in the backseat, Jeff driving, two labs in the bed in their kennels, and we were packed in a style reminiscent of the Beverly Hill Billies (minus the rocker with Granny of course)... We were piled so high on the left I couldn't see out the left side of the truck in the back seat... and Jeff kept saying things like: oh, look at that house or did you see that, or look at that car next to us - FUNNY~ still can't see anything on the left Jeff! Anyway, we stopped in Buffalo for a feeding and diaper change... the dogs got a break in a mini dog park area at the local DQ... I also got a chocolate shake... YUM! Back on the road it was... we stopped in Allen, TX for dinner at Chipotle, which happens to be Jeff's favorite traveling food stop... not mine for sure... and really not easy to eat while holding a baby! After dinner, we really were feeling tired. The stress of the interview for the adoption process, packing up all that crap, driving and driving... anyway, we had to make a decision.... the next 5-6 hours of the drive would be boring with few places to stop... so, all things considered and Mr Fussy Pants time not yet arrived, we decided to stop... find a hotel that takes (big) dogs, and pack it in for the night... We ended up at the Best Western Suites (not a bad place actually.... we were both pleasantly surprised at how nice the place was) and they allowed the dogs... so two queen beds and 30 minutes of unpacking... followed by a couple of dogs walks for facility locating... we were set for bed. I got the awesome privilege of sleeping with my favorite little guy and the only problem that posed was when Jeff started snoring (LOUDLY) - I had to get out of my warn bed, walk across the room, and make him roll over... this happened several times through the night! Jackson had his little sleep with adults hard sided co sleeper thing (as pictured above) and he was set... and safe from his exhausted mommy rolling on top of him! The bonus of this whole set up? Mr Fussy Pants time lasted less than 30 minutes! YAY! That was a blessing.... and off to sleep went.

Then, we were happily rested in the morning to continue the drive... (doesn't Jeff look totally rested above???) Laughing... Needless to say, he went back to bed until around 10 am... then we resumed packing up (again) - missed breakfast altogether, but were back on the road by noon! YAY! And Jackson slept the entire way to OK.... with only one stop for a diaper change and bottle. He is such a great traveler... the hardest part really is the planning and packing... dang, he needs a lot of stuff! LOL! And, pictured below is my little monkey his first morning waking up in Bartlesville, OK. What a great memory.... at least Jeff is in a little house now (I mean LITTLE) and it has central heat! Way better than Dad's 19 foot travel trailer for visiting! The weather had been warm until last night when it dropped to 30 degrees (Fahrenheit)... But, i is reminiscent of our first condo together (albeit a lot smaller...laughing). Just glad to have the weekend with Jeff... glad today is Friday and he will be off work and ready to spend some time with us, without the drive to Houston!!! On a side note... I am missing Katy... I love it there... missing my friends and family and support system... I am a little like a fish out of water in this element... And there is the added bonus of getting to see my brother this weekend and he will meet his new nephew!! YAY!